Triste

i have decided to let my travel plans to Hong Kong lapse. it's all over. i just feel so overwhelmed by my emotions right now. i find it so hard to smile. my injury has taught me a number of lessons. it has broken and still breaks my heart to think about the things i can no longer do and to see others do them. it has brought me down from my tall pedestal and has exposed the extent of my pride, my arrogant self-reliance and my jealousy. it has showed me the real faces of some people that i had originally thought i knew. it has helped me to empathise, to whatever small degree, how my two children with muscular dystrophy are living each day with their limbs wasting away. i have learnt not to take things for granted. pero, aun tengo rios de variosos dolores en la triste corazon...